lördag 31 januari 2009

Baby picture!


* Our darling baby *
one day old - Jan 29, 2009

Isn't she just a cutie-beauty?

More pictures will be added soon...
(The camera battery died just after transferring this one to my PC.)

Breathing... and expleded ideas

1:10 pm
Last night as i lay in bed listening to Baby's breathing while she was awake, i counted that for every one of my breaths, she breathed 9 times! Later when she was asleep, i counted again. This time she breathed 4-5 times for every one of my breaths.

She is so warm and cuddly! It is so nice to feel her body against mine skin to skin. I like carrying her around in the carrying scarf.

I had this idea before that it shouldn't be too hard to get her to stop crying. Just test one after the other: giving her to Mommy's breast, changing her position, hugging, singing, bouncing with her etc. and see what works.
But it ain't that easy... She can be hungry, but then get frustrated when she can't get a good grip on the nipple or for some other reason and start crying heart-rendingly and then you can't really do much till she's calmed down for a new attempt. She's got powerful lungs for a newborn.

She seems to really like it when i sing to her. Several times she's calmed right down when i start singing "Baby, baby, baby, cuty beauty baby" and just making things up as i go along. Have a feeling she is going to be musical when she gets older!

Now it's time for breakfast!

fredag 30 januari 2009

Intense

6:15 pm
It's my hope and wish that Mommy Mariel will start writing here as well. But she is very tired and weak and the baby requires her almost full-time attention. They are sleeping right now, i can't sleep.
They say, "Learn to sleep when the baby sleeps." But it's easier said than done. I seem to be rapidly turning into a zomby. Drank coffee several days in a row and that was a big help but now it's losing it's effect and i don't want to turn into a caffeine junky.

Squiggly-wiggly! We are going to call her Squiggly-Wiggly Hofford Roxendal. Or maybe Cuty-Beauty Hofford Roxendal.

I have Isis, our ethereal cat, in my lap... She is just so present. Even when it was most intense during the delivery, Isis was just sitting or lying down real close to all of us. Totally serene and unperturbed.

I am so tired.

It will probably be a while before we have the energy to post pics...

Sorry about the Swedish layout of the blog. And that you have to become a Google-devotee in order to write comments. I will change blogs again when i get the energy.
Mariel's father came by in the morning a short while and saw the baby.
BTW, she was 50 cm and 4180 g at birth - a big baby!

Mariel's body is pretty out of it. The uterus is pulling itself together and there is some periodic
pain and just general weakness. I'm doing my best to serve her with smoothies and carrots and apples and crackers...

torsdag 29 januari 2009

Our little froggy!

Our little darling...
But i don't feel like a Daddy, i'm just me like i've always been, only now there is this baby that just appeared out of nowhere...

She sleeps alot and has now a firm grip on that nipple! When she lies on her back her bent legs stick flat out like a frog. Our little froggy!

We just figured out how to use a carrying scarf, really handy.

Didn't sleep well last night, every time she made sounds, i woke up. But... We Have Been Warned about that! (from time immemorial)
Time to hit the hay...

onsdag 28 januari 2009

My first lullabye

Mimbani mio
Am G Am
Mimbani mio, silent stars are wandering
Am G Am
Mimbani mio, toward a distant land.
C Am G Am
Way-oway, toward a distant country,
C Am G Am
Way-oway, toward a distant shore.

Am G Am
Mimbani mio, Mother Moon is watching
Am G Am
Mimbani mio, o’er a silent sky.
C Am G Am
Way-oway, Mother Moon is smiling,
C Am G Am
Way-oway, her heart is at peace.

Am G Am
Mimbani mio, listen to the silence
Am G Am
Mimbani mio, listen to your heart.
C Am G Am
Way-oway, love is all around you,
C Am G Am
Way-oway, love is who you are.
Man, i'm really blown away. This little Buddha girl...
I was holding her in my arms for 30 minutes or so just now. She just looked into my eyes
in utter contentment, just this pure beingness and contentedness. The peace was so tangible, Mariel felt it when she came back into the room. Amazing. The experience was so strong it brought tears to my eyes...
Wow
Wow
Wow
Wow....

Will post pictures soon...!
Love and light,
Dana